I fail at hiatuses.

But, I can only stay away for so long, blogging is too fun. >o< Oh darn.

I have been drawing a lot more lately though; like jeez, Zutara Week makes me draw madly, and everyday too. I need some sort of themed week for, like, every week of the year to get me through drawing/practicing everyday. I really need to make myself draw everyday of some sort though. It seems like during school I do more drawing, I don't know why, but during summer when I have tons of time, I always fail to use that time to draw. What's with that?

OH WELL.

Summer is coming to a close, GUH. Back to school soon, back to livin' on my own too. I'm working hard to be more independent too, my savings account is officially set up and I have $100 so far! Whoo! :D Haha, that may seem measly, but it's a big step for me I guess. I'm not the most frugal of spenders, but, I'm trying harder now and I see myself making progress. I'm wanting to save up for things like road trips or traveling, or big things that mean more in the long run. Also, start saving up for my future: house, bills, expenses, etc. Is that weird? I just want to be cautious and use as little loans as possible, for anything really.

OH OH. I've been reading We Were There (a manga) and watching Princess Tutu, and both are making me all gushygushymushy romantic and dreamy lately. =w= I can't help it though! Aah, I'm such a sap for romance and cuteness. We Were There is kinda' intense at times though; I'm just waiting for something super awful to happen or something it's totally building up. And Princess Tutu is SO GOOD. Ohman. Probably one of my favorite anime. The story is so intriguing and I love all the characters. Mmm, Fakir is probably my favorite though... I always seem to go for the broody/redemptive/secretly a softy characters.

I've been really relaxed and peaceful lately, reading, drawing, etc... but not entirely. I need to rely more on God for peace and contentment as well, instead of relying on daydreams, romance, reading, drawing or quality time with friends or my boyfriend. Especially with school in full gear soon I need to be leaning on God for peace and study more in my Bible. I want to be a better witness for Him, and do better this year about my spiritual strength. Uh-huh, it's going to happen!

So much I want to do this summer still though... read, draw, go swimming again, have more friend shindigs, do some just chill relaxation time, spiritual and otherwise. My parents are going to Kansas City the weekend before school starts, and I'm thinking about going with them too. I guess I wish I could've vacationed to a more nature-based place, like the mountains or the ocean, but getting out of Oklahoma at all right now sounds amazing. I'm so tired of baking in an oven, IT'S JUST NOT RIGHT. D:

Fall, where are you?!

Oh... and right when I stop looking, stop expecting, stop just wishing or hoping, he surprises me entirely. When I just let things go how they should, things work out perfectly. I'm letting out a huge sigh of relief that my prayers were answered. God's teaching me to let go of the reigns, and fall back gently; He'll carry both of us. He'll show us how to just live and love in the relationship, not try to control it how we want to see it go. It's a relief to know that when I just let God have control, it works how it should; things feel lighter, natural again. Like they used to be. :)

Hiatus.

So, I'm going to take a hiatus from the Internet for a while. :/

No serious reason. I'm just not getting much done when I'm constantly on the computer; checking things, updating things, writing blogs. I spend so much time here I could be doing other things, and accomplishing other things I want to.

I'll probably come on every now and then to check if you all post stuff, but I won't be writing anything. Besides, not many people even really read/respond to my stuff on here anyway; I'm sort of just writing to myself. It may not be worth even writing anything at all anymore.

I'm considering an entire Facebook hiatus too. But it may be more like only one hour a day or something, even if that means split up into ten or fifteen minute intervals throughout the day or whatever. I just sit on the computer all the time. I need to get out more, exercise, read, draw, do other things. I know telling myself that I'm going to just rip away Internet entirely never works; let's be practical. But, I need to go at it with that mindset of going on less so I can refocus my attention on other things.

I'll be on and off I guess, like I said, reading any new posts, briefly checking Facebook, posting stuff/checking stuff on dA. But, I probably won't seem as active for a while because I'm going to try not to be. I need to put being on the computer and social networking down a notch in the priority list.

Today's just been sort of glum. I hate seeing everyone so down, and I feel like I'm not even helping anyone lately anyway. School starts in less than a month, and I'm excited, but still sad too. Summer's over, and honestly, it's felt like nothing but unbearable heat, convention stress, crying/frustration and drama. I've had a few good days and times for sure, but it's honestly not been the summer I was hoping for. Mainly cause of the weather, it makes me cranky when it's this hot and it's impossible to enjoy anything outside anyway. I also never got a vacation to somewhere naturey or to the ocean like my parents promised; so I'm rather bitter, still, I guess. Oh well, maybe next year. :/

Anyway, last post for a while guys. Thanks for reading.

Legend of Korraaaaaa

So, I watched the trailer.

Oh.

My.

Gewdness.

IT LOOKS HEAVENLY. AND DIVINE. AND KICKBUTT. AND MAN.

I'm so excited.

The animation seriously looks like perfection, Korra looks like one freaking awesome chick, and I'm just so excited another series related to my favorite show EVER is coming out soon! Ah! I wish I was at Comicon to have witnessed the trailer for it's first premiere, like, in person ;-; and met the creators of Avatar and gotten their autographs... *daydreams*

Anyway, if you haven't seen it, just type in "Legend of Korra" trailer in Youtube, it's UH-MAY-ZING. ImsoexcitedIjustcan'thideit. And maybe they'll get the shipping RIGHT IN THIS SERIES. :| haha...*cough*

Overall, yesterday and today were pretty good :) Yesterday I had work twelve to eight, then I came home and ate pizza and watched a really cute chick flick with my mom, "Arthur". It was SOOO cute! They had a quirky kind of love story, and the whole moral of the story was really great. Apparently it's a remake of an old movie though. Today was church, lunch with friends, then running an errand at the mall with my parents.

I was off in Charolette Rouse when I was waiting for them and looked across the way to Suncoast, and saw some cosplayers standing outside -- Vocaloid, to be exact -- and freaked out a little bit. I totally remembered then though about the anime party going on, and felt less like I was going crazy. I mozied on in there and ran into Mattie and her cute bunch of brothers and sisters wearing Avatar cosplay, yay! It made my day. I wish I could've stayed longer though, but my parents wanted to leave. Plus, a lot of the trivia questions were Advent Children, and I literally watched that Friday, so I would've nailed trivia this go around.

I'm also just really inspired for cosplay lately, ironically, even though a convention isn't happening for a while. I want to do some newer cosplays, I was thinking Serenity from Yu-Gi-Oh!, my Painted Lady one, and possibly Yuffie from Advent Children too. And maybe Trainer White from Pokemon Black/White. I can't decide! I guess in my downtime I'm going to start planning for conventions/cosplay/our art table so when the time comes for it, I won't be so stressed. Plus, with school and everything going to be taking over my life pretty soon, I can't afford to procrastinate on cosplay and convention planning. Around Halloween time though, our boss is letting us dress up! Aah! So I definitely would like a new cosplay by then, if not, I'll probably just wear Katara or Malon. :)

But, we all should go to another one of those little anime parties or something in comfortable cosplay and have a fun little time, then wander the mall in cosplay or something and take pictures... or go bowling in cosplay. Baha, those would be fun!

Public humiliation for the win!

Lifting you all up.

I love you ladies, and am lifting you all up in prayer right now. *hugs* Just lean on God, as well as your friends and family, we're all here for you; never forget that.

Psalm 34:18 - "The LORD is close to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit."

1 Peter 5:7 - "Cast all your anxiety onto Him, for He cares for you."

Joshua 1:9 - "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”

Psalm 56:8 - "You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book."

Romans 8:28 - "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose."

I will be all I can be.

I must...

pray fervently.
live and breathe in love.
give God glory and thanks.
smile more.
speak up more.
encourage.
give out more hugs.
lift up others.
think optimistically.
set myself aside.

I cannot...

feel low about myself.
feed off jealousy.
host bitterness.
worry.
hide my feelings.
discourage.
glare or scowl
judge.
feel enraged.
set myself first.

I've been distracted from my personal goals lately. I must be a better me, the best me God has intended for me to be; I've been selfish, lowly, worldly and pessimistic. I've hung onto bitterness and jealousy too long. I've worried pointlessly, and haven't had faith in God enough, or others enough. I have to keep the light and love in my eyes, and keep going out and shining that light and love. I cannot give up this goal, this task, God has for me. I want to be a better daughter in Christ, daughter to my parents, sister to my brother... I want to be a better friend, a better girlfriend, a better employee, a better student, a better citizen. I'm ready to spread more love and encouragement, and dive into a recommitment with Christ. I'm ready to inspire and lift up others around me.

I can only do it through Christ, and here it starts again and continues on even stronger than ever.

I'm ready.

Beautiful.

"And time stands still beneath the air of waiting hours
To touch, just to feel a love that seems to overpower me
She's all I'll ever need
And you know her love just hypnotizes me
'Til All I see is beautiful

At night I dream that you were sent to me from heaven
My Life, it seems so lonely here without your presence
You could change my everyday
And I could never think of love without your name
As you remain---

Beautiful--- like the summer rain to wash away the winter stain
Beautiful--- like the morning sun inviting the dawn to break
Beautiful--- like the joy that comes when the love you've longed for has just begun
Beautiful--- making everything brand new
Beautiful you

And all this time you're changing me to something better
A love so high that everyday that we're together
I will leave the world below
Until your heart becomes the only thing I know."

Baby, you're a firework.

Fireworks/4th of July shenanigans were funnn! I love swimming, and want to swim some more. Let's all have this pool party, seriously! I also seriously want us to all plan a theme park/Six Flags road trip after TnT's over... Roller coasters! Marry-go-rounds! Fattening cotton candy! Aah! I also can't wait 'til for that day at the daycare when we go in cosplay, that will be so fun!

I'm off the next three days, so I'm super stoked to catch up on some drawing, reading, gaming, and everything else I've been sort of busy to do.. I probably should work on cosplay, but for some reason, I'm in a cosplay slump, not really feelin' too inspired to finish Malon @_@. I need to play some Ocarina of Time again and get that inspiration back! However, I'm super stoked for my water tribe/hardcore Katara again. I like fire nation Katara, but there's just something about her watertribe look and attire that makes me feel stronger, more like her, more in character. I just hope my wig comes in on time. @_@ Avatar group at TnT guys! We'll have a Suki and a Sokka there too, so photo opportunities for sure! However, I may leave Kairi at home -- I can't decide if I want to wear her to TnT or not. I kind of just want a day of no cosplay to just chill and enjoy the con. Who knows, we'll see!

Soooo! I was bored and sat on We<3It for like, ever. LOVE that site.

Some pictures I guess! Inspired from my recent mood/feelings and current loves; strength in myself, relationships, chill-time, reading, Pokemon, nerdiness, summertime, and Zuko.