tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-562141102491251687.post2986919259506165426..comments2023-02-14T08:23:52.873-08:00Comments on Little Musings: Dissapointment..Meghanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11284714645081293757noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-562141102491251687.post-45208046874509705682011-05-08T21:12:04.180-07:002011-05-08T21:12:04.180-07:00Yeah, I know right? I didn't care about my sel...Yeah, I know right? I didn't care about my self-image clear through middle school, then high school I started taking care of myself more/dressing up and what not. But, the lack of attention and care throughout middle school really affected me later on and made it harder to change habits/routines and get motivated. >< <br /><br />Cosplay has helped me by being the motivation I need, but, I honestly need to want it for myself without cosplay... I can't start downing myself/comparing myself through or because of cosplay wishes and goals. ><<br /><br />And YEAH, don't get me wrong, I do NOT want to be, like, stick thin. By any means @_@. I think girls with healthy, slender to curvy weight on them/ more "meat" per say is a lot more natural and beautiful in my opinion anyway. We all just have things about ourselves and our bodies we want to change or improve. With enough motivation and determination, it can be done >o< <br /><br />We CAN do it, you are right missy!Meghanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11284714645081293757noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-562141102491251687.post-59077520492387099812011-05-08T16:35:02.032-07:002011-05-08T16:35:02.032-07:00I've never been skinny/slender. I've alway...I've never been skinny/slender. I've always been a bit bigger, not like fat, but just meat-ier. Like I've always have had bigger arms and thighs, always. Even when I was like a little girl, my mom said she had to buy dresses that had sleeves with elastic in them. XP <br /><br />I wasn't hard on myself until after my first year of winterguard. Then after highschool I gained a lot of weight because I sat around and ate all day and did nothing. <br /><br />Yes! Anime girls and even guys, are unrealistic. From the hair down to the size. Some of the chicks you see in anime seriously look sickly. And you'd have to be a size 3 to pull it off, insane. I don't think I've ever been a size 6 let alone a size 3. XD<br /><br />Not that I'm looking to see my hip bones or rib cage, but I would love smaller arms, fit legs/butt, defined stomach, and smaller face. Haha. ROFL. <br /><br />We can do it! >.<Mattie Elizabethhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08804776305658733976noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-562141102491251687.post-33868389516196502952011-05-08T16:22:35.411-07:002011-05-08T16:22:35.411-07:00Awww thanks so much Mattie! ;o; *hugs* This helped...Awww thanks so much Mattie! ;o; *hugs* This helped a lot. :) <br /><br />But yeah, I think cosplay honestly has made my self-esteem even worse. Trying to "fit" into the cosplays I guess; a lot of girl characters are rather slender/skinny and tall, or short, petite and cute. I'm more curvy and average height, so it's hard to pluck right into that stereotypical "cute, tiny anime girl" look, you know? <br /><br />Wanting to be as legit as possible for cosplay makes the weight thing even more stressful. Cause honestly until I started cosplaying, I was never as against my weight/size as I have been. Which is probably good and bad; it's gotten my attention to work harder and work out more/stay healthy, but I'm also now way lower in confidence and self-esteem and not liking myself a lot of the times because of it too. I compare myself a lot to skinnier girls and girls with more slender body shapes and it makes it harder to have confidence I can do better. You know?<br /><br />I'm feeling a lot better about things today; I talked to my mom about it and she's going to help me too, so it'll be good to have a good influence in the household. I love my roomie to death, but she never really ate/kept good and healthy food around our dorm, or helped encourage me indirectly about losing weight. She's already very thin and toned because she dances a lot, so she can burn off all that fat just through her daily classes. So I'm happy to have you and Cheryl and my mom to help support me more and go at it with me. >o< I love you all!<br /><br />We'll get through this!<br /><br />And I'm DEFINITELY joinin' y'all on Tuesday and Thursdays or whatever days we want to work out. :) So excited!<br /><br />Thanks Mattie! I love you girl! <3Meghanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11284714645081293757noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-562141102491251687.post-39382826492156791272011-05-08T12:00:57.925-07:002011-05-08T12:00:57.925-07:00That happened to me, I thought I did really good o...That happened to me, I thought I did really good on my last test but it came back a 75, I was hoping for a B. <br /><br />I'd say, "Hey let's all work out together!" Me, you, and Cheryl? That would be awesome, I mean I know you live pretty far out but maybe we could meet up a couple nights out of the week and "enhance our outer beauty." XD I'm totally up for that.<br /><br />I know what you mean though, I'm definitely not doing sailor moon for Akon, and I don't know about TnT. I just, yes I'm going to use this word, hate so many things about my appearance. Even though I've already lost almost 40 lbs, I still don't feel good and I'm definitely not where I want to be.<br /><br />What has totally helped me thus far, however, portion sizes. MOST DEF. And it can be very very hard, I know, but measuring food/stuff out will help. Also eating more fruits and veggies, like as snacks. Like pickled okra is delicious and crunchy, and it's like 5 calories for 3. I am a calorie counter, which has also helped me.<br /><br />My old trainer said that if you workout for at least 30 minutes everyday that you will see improvements. I haven't been very good recently because of testing/stressing out, but I try to do a morning routine when I first wake up. <br /><br />And yes! Water! I try to fill myself up on water before my meals that way I won't eat a lot. XD<br /><br />Meghan, I love you. You are so beautiful and I look up to you in so many ways. I love your passion, you make me want to strive harder for my goals and dreams. You can totally do anything you set your mind to, I full heartily believe this.Mattie Elizabethhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08804776305658733976noreply@blogger.com