Monday, April 30, 2012

Light up, light up.

I am so stoked right now!

Legend of Korra is AMAZING so far, it's making me freak out every episode and just crave more. I can't wait to see what happens! I can't wait to learn more about the characters, meet new ones, and just watch everything grow and progress. I'm sure there tons of twists and turns as we go along, but I'm ready for them! Rock and roll, baby.

Like I've said before, I just feel so much inspiration from this show. The entire Avatar series, original and new, is definitely my favorite show, hands down, animated or un-animated. Just everything about it is stunning -- characters, story, diversity, animation, visuals, action, romance, humor... It's such a fun fan-base to be a part of, and I love finally being apart of one. I was never really into Harry Potter and all that jazz, and Twilight was sort of a phase, but Avatar has been strong since I first tore through the series a few years ago. And now that Korra is out and I can follow it episode by episode, my love for it is even more strengthened! It's just an amazing show.

And truly inspiring -- Korra has been an insanely inspiring character to me. How she's a strong, independent woman, who has faults and flaws and isn't the stereotypical female anime kinda' character. I love that her hair is in a messy ponytail; I love that she has baggy clothes and a tomboy-ish appearance. I love that her shoulders are broad and that she has strong arms, and big hips. I love her darker skin, and bolder attitude. I can't stand when I see people hating about her cause she's not "white" or "skinny" or is too "manly". BAAAAH! Nonsense.

I'm going to the fabric store today to pick up the last set of fabric for my cosplay, the pants fabric, and I'm going to get started on her soon! I'm hoping to get the pants, hip-jacket thing and shirt done before I leave for NYC -- so when I get back and in between my Florida vacation I can work on the smaller accessories. Having her done by AKON would be real treat, but if not, she will definitely be premiering at TnT. :)

I can't wait for AKON! I was driving the other day and praying about stuff that we can raise enough money to get there and have it be stress free, but then it hit me: most of all, I prayed that we can keep it in mind to be our mission-field when we're there. I want to be a light to those cosplayers and convention goers -- and Becky, what you were saying while we were at Mattie's really re-ignited that passion in me. I really feel called to witness to them too, and just be that light. It's hard to explain, but I see myself in them a lot -- different from "normal" people, unique personality, different interests. They probably feel alone a lot, or like they aren't up to the standards of society's idealization... I don't want to get wrapped up in worldly things of conventions and cosplay, but instead, utilize those that hobby and passion for God's glory by witnessing at conventions or being a light there. Even just prayer walking. It would be the ultimate dream and desire of mine, cause it's truly a lost world and mission field that many people ignore or don't even consider.

Let's remember to keep being lights wherever we go, and shine bright for His glory. :)

Monday, April 9, 2012

You decide who you are.

So I found out today we have to do some major portfolio critique in a couple of weeks. I initially thought it was just for foundations students, and students applying further into the program, but apparently it's not; even if you're just floating along as a junior/senior whatever, you have to get critiqued. Gaaaaah. Luckily it's only stuff from this past semester and this semester.

Still though. Critiques are nerve-wracking, intense, painful, lol. They are so brutally honest with you, it's hard to not direct it back to yourself personally. You really have to separate yourself from your work; but when you put so much time, hours, money, blood, sweat and tears into it, it's hard to NOT be attached to something you do. And when they say it's crap, let it die, forget about it? Ouch.

This semester I was pretty good with design; last semester, ehh, not so much. A few things, there's potential, but package design was just a killer class. I almost want to retake it to redeem myself now that I KNOW what's expected. Plan better, strive more, organize, organize.

I'm just tired; I'm ready for the semester to be done. I can't wait for this summer; warmth, traveling, friends. I'll get to see a beach, I'll get to see things I haven't seen before. And of course conventions with you guys, it'll be awesome.

Never allow someone else to measure out your worth or who you are as a person. No matter what that means: your personality, spirit, vigor, strength, appearance, whatever. Don't attest that to someone else's opinion and then doubt yourself or think they're right. Don't assume that people think so poorly of you or one way of you, they may just surprise you and hold you in higher favor than you hold yourself. However, how we hold ourselves up may reflect on others. If we're confident, strong, motivated and optimistic, people will see us as that. If we're bitter, gloomy, negative, down on ourselves, pitiful, people we'll see that. I'm not really saying this to anyone in particular, if anything, I'm saying it to myself -- I need to work on holding on to my optimism, my strength, I'm encouragement. I don't want to lose myself in the real world, in "growing up". I don't need to think I'm ugly solely because I don't have traits that "he thinks is more attractive", whatever those are.

I need to be me, and love being me, and that will shine on to everyone else.

Thursday, April 5, 2012

I'll follow you into the dark.

I found this video through that creepy video you posted, Mattie, with the FF girls and their eyes all blacked out, lol. It was so creepy!

But this video... aaahhggahahah, soo beautiful. I almost cried. Squinoa forever <3

I'm feeling a little sad and down that Ethan isn't going to AKON now, but I'm not going to let him know. I'm just tired of fighting it with him. He didn't like the idea from the start, the only reason he was on the fence of even wanting to go was because of me and then it being easier and cheaper on everyone else if he went. But now he's like seeming more sure he doesn't want to go for many reasons, which just sucks and makes me sad cause it'd be nice to have him there, I love going to cons with him, but I'm not going to try to sway his opinion anymore.

I'm just tired of being let down and disappointed by him with this whole AKON business, so I'm giving in to whatever he wants to do. Whatever :(

But, it'll be fun if it's a girls trip too! I'm excited either way, I'm just bummed and annoyed the guys are never really reliable, you know? Like how hard is it to just be like "YES" or "NO" from the start, instead of being evasive and confusing. Idk, I guess we'll learn from this. Anytime we want to do AKON in the future, we shouldn't even approach the guys about it. And Andrew will still be there with Tripoint if we ever feel spooked or nervous or anything. We'll just take extra precaution and we'll be fine. We'll work it out.

I have Digital Illustration this weekend again, and I'm stoked. I'm learning so much in that class, painting digitally is so fun! I also have some cosplay stuff to work on. I'm just so stoked I don't have too much homework left for the semester; almost through it, almost surviving, and then summer will be amazing.