This all may seem drastic, however, I seriously need to recheck my life and it's priorities. I had a panic attack yesterday evening, a serious one, with how stressed I was feeling. Everything felt totally disorganized and I didn't even know where to pick up the pieces. Through some family time, and just genuine confession to God with my frustration, and prayer, I figured out that I really will be successful if I plan my time wisely. And write it down, and check it off, so it's a system and routine that I can be convicted by. I work best that way it seems like; when I'm organized and studious with my time, I get so much more done.
During homework hours, my phone will be away from me, and I'm going to mostly remain off Facebook. I'm going to try to dedicate these hours solely for homework/project work, whatever that may entail; sketching, being in the print lab, finishing projects, studying, etc... I need to focus better in school and get my butt in gear of I won't go anywhere I want to go.
I'm going to be a lot more organized with how I spend my time; for example, if we're all planning something, I'm probably going to be annoying with wanting details on time/date/place, etc, and make sure they're set in stone so I don't waste any time. I'll probably always have my sketchbook or notebook with me just in case I had to overlap homework with socializing. And sometimes I may not be able to join :/ This has been bothering me for a while, my lack of ability to be more enabled to meet up or hang out, but I honestly am trying to survive and excel in school right now, so I guess sometimes sacrifices must be made... I'm stoked for Izumicon though so I can have a full weekend of leisure and fun! Which is probably why I'm not stressing out about the table too much either, cause I don't need added stress, lol... Oy vey.
Once winter break comes around, however, I'll be soaring and will probably be gnawing at the bits to hang out and see everyone. It's truly my free, relaxed time because I only need to focus on work. So, put up with me. Haha!
Also, if I ever seem spacey or stressed or just sort of tense or on edge, do NOT take it personally; just brush it off, lol. I'm going to be like that this semester a lot; and it is never anything anybody does, it's usually 95% related back to school and my deadlines. So many deadlines... So much to do! It's sort of nice remaining busy, but it's stressful and taxing none the less if I get behind at all. So just understand it's usually always school stess, and that I'm much happier being with you guys always, even if it seems like I'm just sort of out of it. Haha!
Well, let's hope this whole budgeting time idea works.... I hate the idea of living life by a schedule, it irritates me, but if it works for me, then maybe it's something worth trying out. Just be praying for me if you could! I love you all, you are amazing :)